isn't that always the way? you want to deny feelings that are there. there is this need inside you, this ache, this desire for something that overtakes you, but at the same time - you push it away. you know that even though your lips say one thing, your heart is speaking something completely different. it's an intense feeling really, when you are conflicted like this. there is no balance, no way to just be partly involved. you are either not in love or you are. it's hard to find the way to walk away when you feel so connected.
it's hard to be truthful about your feelings and move forward. your heart feels heavy, your thoughts race. it's a heavy burden. as you surpress your desire you know secretly that you will always harbor feelings. always harbor a need...for chocolate.
yea, i have figured out that when I eat too much candy and chocolate Ben gets gassy...so despite my love affair, chocolate and i are taking a "break."
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